` I hope you are here then ..


My sorethroat isn't getting better.. It's getting from bad to worst already. I've been coughing like mad cow. & Yet i spend 15 mins to finish one stick of cig. I can't smoke even i'm sad. Wtf? But if i don't get well always. Baby's still there to takecare of me ;D That's th best thing lerhs.


My eyes are swollen already. I cried all th way back on phone with baby ytrd. While i walk home from baobeh's home. It's such a long road. But it's cold & Lonely without you. I cried & Cried asking him. Not to go. Can he stay. I keep asked. He cried bitterly. Saying he felt he doesn't have th right to be my boyfriend. Because i'm too good for him. He said let him think. I say i don't want! I only want him to stay so difficult? I said he promised. Won't throw me alone deh. I only keep say don't go. Don't leave me. & I keep on crying. He say what if he goes out & Cannot pei me again? What if something happened like th past & We quarrel again. I said. It's okays. I'll wait. I only want him to stay. But he say why i treat him so good. Why is always me waiting. Then i said why can't i wait. I only want him to stay. I rly only want him to stay! I want nothing lerhs! I could wait for you to go home. He says he never change dehs. He's always a gamer. I said it's okays it's rly okay! I will wait! Then why can't you just stay?! You promised.. You said you won't throw me alone.. )':