` If love was like this , I rather be alone .


I'm so bored now. At home. Doing nothing. Only keep wait wait & Only wait. For baby to wake up. I felt everything was not th same anymore then. Like most of th time, He wouldn't be at my side. 2008 sucks. I hate it. In th past was, He wanting to meet me everyday. & Yet. Now was me. Why is everything turining back round. & Bang it to another's ass? Omfg. Seriously, I felt so not in love now alrdy. I'm alone always deh. I;m always being th one left out. Always being th one who nobody would notice. Even he does it too. Yuck. My relationships rly sucks. What does it take to mantain a rly perfect one? I guess there's nothing that could bring our relationship to that standard. Somebody maybe his feeling faded. But i said nah, He won't. Days passed. & Yet i'm still thinking of th same thing. Not now anymore. Becuase i no longer feel his love around. My heart's breaking more & More each day. Would any girl want to have such a relationship? I bet none does. I'm also a human. I have feelings. I don't know how long i could tolerate. But rly.

It's hurting me inside badly.