` I was seriously a bad girlfriend after all.


Isit i was too harsh. Or was it just at th point of time i decided on this. Isit just because i love you so much. That i couldn't even know what i'm doing. Or isit, I can't even manage to survive without you for 1 second. I know people cared. But, I don't need any comfort. Because i don't deserves it. Maybe. I'm th one who wanted a broke up. It's none of his business. Yeah. I'm th one who broke up. So why i'm so sad here. Because, Hah. I found out. I regretted alrdy. Isit harsh or whatever. It's too late alrdy bah. Yeah. I picked up my courage to called up his phone. & Guess what. It's off. Hah. He said he doesn't want things to be like that. Yet i keep replying him th same thing. I want a break up. & He said it's your final decision or you're just angry. & I said. Yes, It's my final decision. I ain't angry. I told him iloveyou. & I said takecares. Alrights, His last message was th one i broke out in tears thinking why i made this choice. He said. Baby, If that's your final decision. I do respect you. Always remember iloveyou. Takecare too. This is what he said. Th very very last message i've received. Okay. It's all my fault. I didn't manage to be a good girlfriend. I didn't manage to understand you. But. I rly did sacrifice alot just because of you. Things seems everything goes along me on th surface as you all see. But it's not just this yet. Yes, Everyone has secrets. He gives in everytime. Yes, He is good to me. Rly. I didn't say he isn't. But this is th surface. Only between us. He should know how much i've ever sacrifice. Who say i doesn't love him. Who says i'm th one who broke up with him & I can't be sad at all. Who says i shouldn't have cried. Who says i made th wrong decision & They're right. So what? I don't care luh. This are th things between us. What do outsiders know actually? Since this decision i've alrdy made. Then. I can't do anything to hold back anymore i guess. If th time could turn back. IF. Seriously. I won't be so harsh again. Untill i receive his msg. I didn't know i was only just too harsh. If outsiders think i don't have th right to be sad nor cry. Just tell me then. What do you all actually know about us? Please don't fucking as if you all know everything about our relationship since it's OURS. Because. I don't want any outsiders to care. If you all think it's my fault of breaking. You all can blame me then. I won't say anything. Because. IT ISN'T HE WHO IS SACRIFICING ONLY. Get it? & He also isn't in fault. Seriously. If any girls is aiming for him now. I guess. I could no longer care isit. Hah. Maybe jealousing behind. Such a good guy. Such a waste. Jasonhong. Can i possibly call you baby onced more? If there's a day we could turned back. Would you come with me? Omfg, I'm such a fool to think of all this now. I guess it's rly too late alrdy. It's rly too late. I told him i don't want anything anymore. Even my sisters. I said i would rather be alone then. Alone is always lonely. & It doesn't changed for me. Lonely causes tears to drop. & Lonely also causes things to be in a mess. Hah. I'm back to my lonely life onced again. I went to bugis brought our couple tees to wear it on valentines. I guess. It can be thrown bah. Valentines, A day for sleeping yeah? Maybe.


Jasonhong, If any day. You want to turn back. I might be waiting. This time. Give me a chance to prove i'm wrong. I'm harsh. I can wait even th double time you've waited. Even triple. Even 10 years down th road. I know i'm still waiting. I won't have any guy anymore from today onwards except YOU. I regretted. Can you please on your phone? I'm rly sorry. Rly. It's th first time i've said this to a guy, Can you please please on your phone & Check th messages? I seriously need you right now ):